The Sapphic Christmas

14th December. part 2

Ella

We have to return at the night. I didn't mean to ruin my friends' vacation just because something weird was going on in my head. In addition, I liked Glasgow, it's festive. However, something happened with Josh and Claire's house, so we all go back. As Louis said, we leave no man behind.

We have already landed in London and decided to go somewhere to have dinner together. After all, now we'll all go home, and only Claire and Josh live together, they have nowhere to go from each other.  Louis and I arrange a joint overnight stay at my house. It seems that he understands well what I feel, and does not allow me to be alone for a minute. On the one hand, it's very cool, I like to feel that there's always someone nearby. On the other hand, I'm already a little tired of society. As an introvert, I need some alone time.

We head to "the best pizzeria in town," as Claire said, in two cars. I'm with Louis and Alex. They have their special connection, so I chill on backseat. I listen to their voices, some local jokes. It's nice to be there, and at the same time there's only a ghost of me.

In the capital, snow's falling in large snowflakes. I remember the day when Sophie drove me to a snowy field. Was it not so long ago? I'm pretty sure it happened a week or so ago. It seems so distant, unreal. I don't like the difference in her behavior, it's a red flag for me. However, maybe I misunderstood something. We should meet and talk it throw. Then I'll make my decision.

We've ordered pizza, when a young lady who looks like Sophie comes into the ristorante. I focus my eyes and it's really her. Should I do something or just accept the fact that she ignored my messages, and in life she also won't notice? I don't know what to do. Maybe just pretend I don't see her? It won't work, I can't. Louis, like all friends, is watching me and Sophie, guessing who she is. I think they understand. Lou takes my phone and does something that I don't care much at that moment, but when the guy shows, I understand that I need to change the password on the phone. He first has tried to call Soph, and then just texted a message. Friends shouldn't do that. I'm not ready to face her.

Because of this message, I have to go to Sophie for a greeting, and I'm already preparing for her to be rude or annoyed. However, Sophie hugs me very tightly, offers to treat me with dinner and even agrees to come to my apartment tomorrow. That makes me happy, actually. It seems like our relationship can improve. Maybe I really made it all up. There're no problems, we still have the same good relationship, everything is fine.

After talking a little with Sophie, I return to my friends, who at that moment are vigorously discussing something. I'm pretty sure it's some sort of pronunciation issue, they love this topic. Friends just love to argue, and everyone is sure that they're right. When I come, the argument subsides, and my friends look at me like jackals at a wounded victim. They definitely want to know everything. However, I'm not sure I have anything to tell them. No one, except Lou, knows about the weird behavior of Sophie.

"When will we meet her?" Louis asks first, continuing to glare at me.

"Do you want to?" I didn't think the pals were really interested in it. My friends nod, almost in unison. "Then someday I'll offer it to her. If everything going to be good. If you'll behave, kids."