I have much lived a life that would not suffice to achieving something profound although I am 16, I still wonder if I have ever been able to make an impact ? Doesn't matter if it is a single word or a sentence , it makes me wonder if my existence is mere twilight. Some days I am willing to be the overbearing rays of light that is when I try to make an effort and on the other days I am wholeheartedly driven towards the night , the dark , it intrigues me , it feels right , the darkness allows me to feel. There I stand between this maze of light and the dark , this maze of breathing and living , what means to be breathing ? What means to be living ? Are they meant to be the same or do they differ? I am still looking for the answer but with the end of each day I am left with more unanswered questions. Human world is filled with many desires , desire to love and be loved, desire to befriend and be befriended, desire to feel and be felt but why is that they desire to live but only breathe ? I am an observer , I am overcome with this subconscious obsession to observe everything and everyone, I wasn't like this before well to be honest I never had this incentive to question anything because I never needed to but something changed ever since that night. The night the stars existed without the moon.The night I forgot me , the night I forgot my happiness , the night I forgot my will to live although I am breathing but I am not living , I have no will to live yet I am breathing why ? Why is that sadness is more of a home to me and not happiness ? Why does happiness feel like an uninvited guest ? I have so many questions yet never ever an answer.
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crimson veil of the moon
RomanceXie Lian and Hua Cheng drifted centuries apart from each other when one of them dies protecting the other however they found themselves drifting towards each other once again in the modern world ,however do they remember each other? Read to find out...