I light a cigarette
Inhale & watch
As the fire burns
The tobacco & paper
Smoke appears
& the fire disappears
So many thoughts fill the air
But no words surface
To face the music
Soft music plays in the background
The beat comes in
As I sit across from a friend
Sifting through papers
I'm searching my head
& all that comes to mind is you
The dimples in your cheeks
The kindness in your eyes
The tug of war you play with your mind
Which I despise
The level
At which we've reached
Is... no was unattainable
Until I met you
A smile that would kill
A heart of gold
& I fear it to be to good to be true
A moment of weakness
Is what you are
N undeniable piece of joy
That warms my heart
The roads narrow
At which we travel on
But the journey
Is a once in a life time
The rocks pile on us
& I hope the strain
Doesn't kill our vibes
In your eyes
I see things I know
Will never grace my skin
Yet & still I urge to reach for them
& when they do touch me
I let all emotion
Deep from within me seep out
Onto your canvas
& I cherish these moments
I get up leaving her
Grab my jacket
& slide it up my arms
Not missing one beat
As I bob my head to the music
The walk to the car is lonesome
My heart thumps in my ears
I'm panicking
Trying hard not to lose it
I switch to my aux
Three days grace
Animal I have become
Begins to play
I can't escape this hell
So many times I've tried
But through your eyes I will
This I pray won't be a lie
You bite your lips
Shifts in your seat
& calls me on my bullshit
I test the waters
Before fully submerging
It's a war going on
Bombs going off
Yet & still I'm crossing
Hopefully we'll meet each other
In the middle
& then will you know every bit of me
Raw & uncut
