The cigarette burns slow
Slow music plays in the background
And every thought that I had
Becomes jumbled
The cigarette becomes
A weapon
And my arm becomes the ashtray
Drop...
My skin burns
All the pain concentrated into one spot
Every word uttered
One more reason
I pick it up
Putting it out ever so slowly
The orange red
Turns black
As I let out a sigh of relief
I'm letting you go
I don't want to feel anymore
I put a blunt to my lips
Inhale deeply
And choke on the smoke & spit
Built up in the back of my mouth
Ahh
I scream
Ahhhhh
Ahhhhhhh
My scream turns into laughter
Everything I do is wrong
You say you feel no connection to me
To none of us
I guess it's time to dead that shit
A waste at every turn
The love I was supposed to feel
I never felt
Searching for something
Shit I'm contemplating
Praying I find that one love before I go
That one I can't let go
My heart ache
My hearts in pain
Cuz it's fake love
At every which way
I swear I only want one thing
But even dreams can be nightmares
