I've had this feeling
Like I'm chocking on a ball
Just sitting in the back of my throat
For what seems like forever
But this feeling
Is unbearable
I can't take this shit anymore
I just want to scream
And rip the hair from my scalp
One by one
Like I got a nervous condition
Any pain
Will feel amazing
Compared to what I'm feeling now
So I take and release
The stress
The best I know how
That's been causing my sleep
To deplete
It felt good
And then
All of a sudden
It felt like shit
The feelings came back
Ten times more heavier
Than before
I can't breath
It's like a seven hundred pound man
Sitting his fat ass on my chest
Causing me to hiccup
And lose breath
It's me
I know this
I don't know why it took
Me so long to see
I got hurt
Then used that pain
Which has helped fuel my anger
Now look at you
I turned those feelings I had
Into complete nothingness
My surface
As strong as an iphones face
This was the beginning
Of a new chapter
Right?
Why does it seem like
I'm an addict
Fighting to stay in the light
I'm not this person I'm becoming
Yet the thought of you
With someone else
Is sickening
I can imagine
How you felt
Being left afloat
Dangling
Like a kittens new toy
From the door
You'd be foolish
To even pick up the phone
To write a text
The simplest smile
Seems so complex
This is goodbye
I guess
To let you know
I don't and I won't
Be here anymore
You know that
At least that's what you let escapee
Before
My comfort zone
Gone
Like that dick
Fuck am I talking bout
I honestly at this point
Can't stand to be near you
The thought of you
Sends my emotions
Which I thought I didn't have
Into over drive
I'm ill
Sick for no fucking reason
I can't get up
I can't eat
I'm angry
For no fucking reason at all
Apologies mean nothing
But I'm all about actions
So excuse
My lame ass
I'm sorry
The end.
