BTS Eighth Member | The Life: Year 2017

Chapter 17- I'm Sorry

March 23rd, 2017:

We had all showered and changed before meeting up in the suite. I got there last not only because my showers were much longer, but because I had spent so much time staring at myself in the mirror, questioning everything in my life. Instead of being sad, now I was mad that this was happening, that I allowed it to happen, that I couldn't get myself together, and that it was ultimately affecting my relationship with the group and my family as well. As a result, I got to the suite late, and all the spots on the couch or elevated heating system were taken, so I sat on the floor next to Namjoon. All the staff had gone, but food had been put out for us, and Yoongi and Jungkook had already started eating.

We spent twenty minutes letting Seokjin and Taehyung explain their side of the argument. Taehyung was upset that it felt like Seokjin wasn't willing to make the performance better and work as a team, thus making it harder for Taehyung due to his supposed laziness. Seokjin felt he was being singled out and that Taehyung didn't understand that he truly was trying his best and he wasn't as good a dancer and thus changes like he was asking were much harder for him to implement.

"Now that we've listened, it's not about who's wrong," Yoongi speaks up, "it's just it didn't have to be that way".

"Yeah, I'm sad it happened, but I think Jin hyung could have listened and tried to do as asked," Jimin said, putting his on Seokjin's back sympathetically, "And Taehyung you, just personally like I make a lot of mistakes too, but you shouldn't forget he's older than you. That goes for Jungkook and Y/N too".

"You're right. I apologise for that," Taehyung replies seriously, "I acted selfishly and talked to you with an attitude".

Seokjin doesn't respond right away, obviously thinking about how to respond appropriately.

"I appreciate the apology," he starts, nodding, "and it's true that I disregarded you and that I offended you, but I'm older than you, so that hurt my pride. I try not to impose myself on you guys because I think pridefulness is good for nothing, but I do have my limits and I felt like you were speaking with this... this haughtiness that I didn't appreciate".

"If I may explain myself, I never once, not once, tried to offend you," Taehyung said quickly, "I've never thought "oh I'm just going to offend him" or like "I know better".

"You're obviously not trying to offend each other," Yoongi said, "I don't think any of us does. I think sometimes we can't take a joke or lighthearted request as is, that's what I thought it was if anything".

"I'm sure you're not trying to offend anyone," Hoseok agreed, looking at Taehyung nicely, "if you were, you would've fought a long time ago".

"Yeah, I agree. And like this is not the first time we've fought. Hell, look at Yoongi hyung and Y/N. They've had some real arguments, but it was never once out of wanting to piss the other off," Namjoon chimes in, "It's not that you don't like Jin hyung. We know that. And like, we can get pissed off, but I think it's important we think twice. The staff was there, and it looked really serious. Just think about the environment and whether it really is the time and place, next time. Like we want everyone to talk about their issues with each other, but there is a time and place".