I'm not sure what to say anymore.. I have nothing I want to say. not too much I want to share and get myself hurt. nothing I want to publish and be used against me anymore.
I've removed the thought of it all.. changed the pictures, the name in my phone, put everything away.
gone. and yet, anything draws me back to it so easily. and I just get upset. I run in circles over the entire situation, wondering how life can really be this way.. out of no where. and while I tried as much as I could to imagine a different ending, I see nothing but a heart that won't be able to fully heal. only one heart in that condition.. the other seems fine.
I want to create my own ending, write my own story.. I want my choices again and not be controlled over what someone else thought or what everyone around me might want to judge. I want to be the one who decides that.
I want to keep these all to myself..
I want to walk away in peace.
I want to get used to silence.
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today.. I was told I deserved better. I had better. what happened to it? I don't know. you tell me.
YOU ARE READING
one day i began to think
General FictionAlright, so this was formally known as lazy reads. It's no longer that. I do put short stories on here occasionally. OCCASIONALLY. But recently it's been a nice little public journal that really no one reads. What I publish is supposed to be someth...
