𝕓𝕠𝕪𝕗𝕣𝕚𝕖𝕟𝕕 𝕚𝕞𝕒𝕘𝕚𝕟𝕖𝕤 (A+A)

panic attack pt.2

Once Ace had pulled over, he unbuckled himself and then reached over unbuckling mine. He looked at me as I breathed heavily and uneven, trying to catch my breath.

He looked over over at him seat, reaching his hand down the side of his seat and pulling on something. His seat reclines back and he sits up reaching his arms over to me. He wraps one around my waist and one under my legs. I pushed his hands away making him look at me confused before I sat myself onto his lap. He leans back, pushing my head onto his chest.

"Look at me baby, we're gonna take some deep breaths okay?" he asks and I nod moving my head up to look at him. He looks down at me smiling slightly comforting me. He moves on hand to my cheek, moving the hair out of my face as he holds his other hand onto mine rested on his chest to feel his heartbeat.

"Breathe in beautiful," he says as we both breathed in. "Out" he says after a few seconds, we both release our breaths and I already feel a bit better. We repeated that until my breath has evened out and I could breathe normally now.

"How do you feel now baby?" he asked. "Better" I replied back still breathing a bit heavy.

"Lets go, I'll be fine, I don't want to fail this presentation," I say, stuttering on a few words as I hiccup from my crying. I sit up in his lap looking down at my hands, suddenly finding my nail polish extremely interesting.

Ace knew what exactly to do when I had panic attacks or when I got extremely nervous since it happened often. He was always the one that comforted me and made me feel like I wasn't crazy even when I felt like I was.

Suddenly thinking about how my I had absolutely bombed last presentation, my eyes started tearing again. Why am I like this?

"Hey baby, look at me please," he pleaded "You will be ok, I promise you won't fail," he tries to reassure me. "My beautiful smart baby doesn't fail does she?" he jokes with a smile as he rubs my cheek.

I hugged him around his neck with my head on his shoulder, as he rubbed my back. He continued to rub my back, his other hand running down to my thigh and rubbing my hip.

"I know how stressful school is, I've been there, but you only have a year left. Once you finish we can get amazing jobs and spend the rest of our lives together" he said in a hopeful tone. He knew how I had always complained about wanting to skip my schooling and just have the job, being stable and being happy.

"I wish we could do that now" I said sighing against his neck. He laughs shaking his head.

"I know baby and I'm so sorry that we're not there right now. You know I'd give it to you in a heartbeat if I could but soon, we have the rest of our lives to do it," he promised, kissing my forehead and trailing smaller kisses until he got to my lips. Once he did, he left a soft kiss on my lips.

After a few minutes of just sitting there wrapped up in his arms I had started feeling bad and as if I were a burden. I knew he didn't mind comforting me in this way but I couldn't help but think that he found it annoying, as if I couldn't control my emotions.

"I'm sorry, you must think i'm overreacting" I said in a hushed and embarrassed tone. He grabbed my chin making me look back up at him, he looked at me in shock, his eyebrows furrowed as if he couldn't believe what I was saying.

"What?! Never baby, you weren't over reacting, it's normal to feel nervous" he said as he softly lifted  chin again when I lowered my head, to kiss me on the lips with so much love. I felt the reassuring comfort spread through me but my brain still wouldn't let me fully accept it.

"One second pretty girl, lemme make a phone call real quick to let your prof know you won't be coming" he said moving me by my hip so he could reach his phone in his pocket. "No, don't," I yelled feeling embarrassed that Ace was like my dad, speaking for me cause the little baby was too scared to for herself. Fucking child.

"Okay then, let me do it from your phone," he says and I sigh just letting him do it. I knew I couldn't get him to back down when he put his mind to it so the only real option was to just let him do it.

"Done," he said throwing my phone back down onto my seat and holding onto my waist looking at me with so much love.

"I love you" he said as he put his head on my shoulder. I thought about how lucky I was to have someone so amazing in my life. I really couldn't comprehend how lucky I was to have him. Why he would choose me out of all the girls that obsess over him, I have no idea.

I knew Ace would beat my ass if he knew I was thinking such things but I couldn't do anything about it, that's just how my brain was. He loved me though, I knew it. He just said it.

"I love you more" I responded running my fingers through his hair. He sighed in comfort as my hands went through his hair.

"So, beautiful, what do you wanna do today?" he asks smiling up at me.
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me looking over this chapter: 🤮

word count: 974

i didn't know what tf to write so it's really short, sorry!!!