Belonging to me [[Bucky Barnes x Oc x Steve Rogers ]] 18+

Sixty-Eight

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Emily

After being interrogated for over an hour by my brother, I was finally allowed to leave the room and go to my bedroom. I was exhausted and needed to get away from everyone watching me. I was getting annoyed with it but I almost exploded when I saw Bucky and Steve sitting on my bed.

"Out," I said, pointing to the door, "I don't want to be around you two right now,"

"We need to talk," Steve said.

"Nah, you're good," I scoffed, "Both of you need to fuck off and let me sleep,"

"We want to know what happened," Steve said, standing up, "You trashed the room. What happened?"

I rubbed the bridge of my nose, "I want to sleep. Get out,"

"Doll," Bucky said, "Please,"

~FLASHBACK~

"Hail Hydra," Jared whispered into my ear and my eyes went wide. I shoved him back and watched him pull a knife from his pocket, "My boss wants you back,"

"Let me guess," I said, quietly, "Roman has been lonely without me,"

Jared smiled, "Not only are you beautiful, but you are also smart,"

"Not smart enough," I said, "Why didn't I see that you worked for Hydra?"

"Because it was only recently. He offered me something I couldn't resist," He said, "But enough talking,"

"Wait, wait!" I said quickly, holding my hands in front of me as he stepped forward, "Was our relationship ever real? Did you really love me?"

"Yeah. I loved you," Jared shrugged.

"So, not anymore? Right? You have no feelings of love towards me?"

"Babe," He laughed, "No. I only want to drag your ass back to Roman and get my pay. Is that what you wanted to hear?"

I let out a sigh of relief, "Good. Then I won't feel bad when I kick your ass,"

~END OF FLASHBACK~

I shrugged, "I don't remember much of the fight. Jared...I never knew he could fight. I was thrown around like a rag doll but I managed to get the upper hand. I knocked the knife away and I grabbed his head,"

"You broke his neck," Bucky said, softly.

"Yeah," I let out a shaky breath, "I didn't know I had it in me. Even though he had cheated on me and was a total asshole at times, I had no clue he would get involved with Hydra,"

"You did what you had to do to survive," Bucky said, walking towards me, "You did well,"

I shook my head, "I don't know how to feel about it. I don't know if I'm happy about killing him or sad or guilty. How am I supposed to feel about this?"

Bucky let out a sigh and pulled me into a hug, "You can feel however you want to feel. If you feel guilty, then feel guilty. If you're happy about killing him then that's ok as well. I'm happy you did,"

"Of course," I whispered, "You didn't like him,"

"No one did, Princess," Steve said hugging me from behind, "I'm just glad that you are alive,"

I swallowed hard feeling my heart race and I gently pushed the boys away from me, "Thanks. But I want to sleep now. Alone,"

"Emily, you-"

"No," I said, "I still need space from you. You both hurt me and I can't just get over it,"

"I'm sorry," Steve said, "I-"

"Please, leave," I folded my arms, "I won't let myself get hurt again,"

"What are you saying?" Bucky asked, "You don't want us with you anymore?"

"I don't know what I am saying!" I exclaimed, "I am having a very hard fucking time at the moment. I was fucking kidnapped and hurt and I have just murdered my ex-boyfriend. I am trying to deal with my goddamn emotions and trying to focus on myself rather than trying to keep everyone else happy. I love you both. So much that I feel like I'm going insane. I want you both and I always will. But right now, I need time for myself. I can't keep doing this. Why does it keep happening to me? Why can't I just have a normal life?"

I couldn't help but burst into tears and I dropped onto my bed, sobbing. Steve and Bucky put their arms around me. 

I wasn't sure what the hell was going on with my emotions. I was at a breaking point and I needed to get away from it all. I wanted to escape the world and pretend that none of this was happening to me.

The Emily Stark I once knew was slowly crumbling and I wasn't sure where she was going.

"Let it all out," Steve said.

"I don't know what to do!" I cried, "Why does this always happen to me?"

"Because life fucking sucks, Doll," Bucky said, "Where would the fun be if it was a boring normal life?"

"Yeah. What normal girl would have a threesome with two super-hot soldiers?" Steve said.

I couldn't help but giggle through my tears, "So stupid,"

"But true,"

"I don't know what I'm doing with my life," I wiped my face with my sleeves, "I don't seem to have my head screwed on properly and I'm at a standstill. What do I do to make myself happy? And don't you dare give me those looks! I will not be having sex with either of you,"

"What looks?" Bucky tried to show an innocent smile, "Who said I wanted to have sex with you?"

"What do you mean?" I asked, tilting my head slightly.

"Well, there are three of us in this relationship," Bucky smirked, "Steve could have-"

"Hell no!" Steve jumped to his feet, "No chance. No. You will not be having sex with me. My ass is out of bounds to you and your mouth is only allowed near Emily. Not me,"

"You don't want some of this?" Bucky asked, gesturing at himself, "I'm a catch,"

"I will punch you if you ever come near me,"

"Listen," I said, "If you two wanna fuck or argue, then please leave. I still need to sleep. Ok?"

"Come on sweetheart," Bucky winked at Steve, "Let's take this back to my room and we can dance with no clothes on,"

"Fuck you!" Steve jumped to his feet and pointed at me, "You. Make sure you are dressed by midday or else,"

"Or else what?" I asked.

"You'll have to find out. Get some sleep. Bucky, come on. You need to let her sleep as well,"

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