Blooming Flowers, Silent Sorrow

Chapter 96

Su Yin left the Su Residence two days ago, saying that there was something the Su family needed him to take care of, so he returned to Jiangnan.

Su Yin had always been very busy, so this time was no different. However, Xiao Bao felt particularly uneasy because he knew that Huai En was not far away. Without Su Yin in the Su Residence, he felt no sense of security.

The only one who could possibly stop Huai En, Que Siming, simply ignored him. When he had his consultation a few days ago, Que Siming had behaved as if he were watching a good show. This made Xiao Bao so agitated that he felt like banging his head against the wall. Furthermore, the more Jin Bao tried to persuade him, the more determined he became. Not only did he admire Jin Bao, but every second spent with Que Siming was torture. That unethical person constantly made him doubt his own life.

Xiao Bao finished the last sip of his tea, picked up a book from the shelf, and started reading. He had drunk too much tea today and didn't feel sleepy at all. Sometimes, he could sit and stare into space until dawn.

He felt very tired and needed rest, but he couldn't sleep.

He didn't know when Huai En might appear. In the end, he didn't even know if he hoped for his appearance or not.

Why not just get it over with? Then he wouldn't have to be so afraid that he couldn't even sleep.

So when Huai En really appeared, Xiao Bao even felt a sense of relief.

It was still a bit cool at night, Xiao Bao was wearing light clothes and covered himself with a thick blanket, sitting on the bed reading. Huai En appeared again without a sound.

Xiao Bao's body trembled slightly as he moved, his hand holding the book trembling. Every time he tried to face him calmly and coldly, but when he really appeared, he couldn't calm down.

Xiao Bao could only watch as Huai En walked over and sat on the edge of his bed, reaching out to touch his face, and stubbornly saying that sentence again, "Xiao Bao, I miss you."

Xiao Bao had the urge to cry in an instant. Holding onto his self-loathing heart, he thought, maybe this was true.

Seeing Xiao Bao not speaking, Huai En continued, "I'm going to Chifeng Cliff tomorrow to pick flowers for you. Before the end of this summer, I will definitely gather the seven Dahlian flowers for you. I won't let you suffer through another winter."

"...If...you get better, let's reconcile. As long as you forget the past, you can have whatever you want. I will treat you well. I... I really mean it..."

Xiao Bao lowered his head, his heart beating like a drum. He was increasingly unsure of what to do.

He couldn't believe Huai En. This person's surname was Zongzheng, and he couldn't forget the suffering he had endured. Just thinking about it made him feel cold all over. His limbs seemed to be getting less and less agile at a visible speed. He couldn't go a day without thinking that he might never get better, that he might become a useless person, lying in bed every day, unable to even comb his hair or drink water. That hopeless life might be what he was going to experience. He knew that even without this person, he couldn't escape this calamity. But being used and betrayed was a fact. If the Jin family could have what they have today, and if he could have what he has today, it was all deserved. But being pushed into the abyss of despair and pain by someone who treated him sincerely, who could he reason with? Was this also what he deserved? He sincerely liked someone, pursued them seriously, where did he go wrong? Who did he hurt? Why did he have to suffer retribution?

So he truly hated it. He hated how Huai En easily trampled on his sincerity, how he abandoned him, how he didn't miraculously appear when he was screaming for help. Huai En didn't have to like him, but why deceive him? Why treat him so badly? Maybe Huai En really had feelings for him, or something else, so he came back whenever he wanted, then openly said he missed him.

But what about when he missed him? When he needed him countless times, where was he?

Who knows if he appeared this time with some ulterior motive? Even if Huai En is really sincere, why should he believe it? Can it be, perhaps, that there will be a time when you will be heartbroken for me?

Who would have thought that Huai En's awkward confession could be so deeply moving?

It was because it felt so genuine, he couldn't bring himself to believe it was insincere.

Gently shaking his chin, Huai En urged, "Say something, Xiao Bao."

Xiao Bao glanced at him, coldly snorting, "You owe me this. It's your responsibility to detoxify me. Don't expect me to thank you."

"I don't need your thanks. I'll do anything for you."

Huai En's bright, deep eyes sparkled like obsidian in the night, his face, as beautiful as white jade, even more striking under the moonlight. Especially when he spoke with such sincerity, Xiao Bao couldn't bring himself to look away.

Huai En gently turned Xiao Bao's chin and pushed him onto the bed, then leaned in to kiss him.

Their lips met, and both felt the intense tremors, as if it were their first touch. Huai En gently sucked on Xiao Bao's lower lip, tenderly kneading and licking it, his tongue trying to slip inside.

Finally reacting, Xiao Bao pushed Huai En away. "Stop it. If you want that, find someone else." He could feel Huai En's hardness against him, wondering how long he had been holding back.

Huai En's kissing continued, moving from his lips to his chin, then down, murmuring, "I won't find anyone else. I only want you, only want to be with you like this. I miss you so much, Xiao Bao."

Huai En spoke swiftly, undoing Xiaobao's clothes and slipping his cold hand under Xiaobao's shirt, causing Xiaobao to shiver.

With his limbs restrained, Xiaobao's eyes reddened with anger. He forcefully banged his head against Huai En's forehead, making himself dizzy.

Seizing the opportunity while Huai En was momentarily stunned, Xiaobao wriggled free and, infuriated and on the verge of tears, exclaimed, "You... You damn Zongzheng Huai En! Are you even human? How dare you... You're just a beast raised by your family, don't I deserve some dignity? After you've tossed me around like this, when no one else wants me, they all come to you. But when I was being tortured in the dungeon, why didn't you think to want me then? At the very least, you could have come and saved me! I really...I really can't take it anymore. What do you want from me? Just tell me straight! I'm telling you, if I degrade myself again, I'll chop myself up! You're just a heartless wolf, just a beast! I knew you were up to something again, and now I see it's for this. You're in heat, right? Find someone who has no grudge against you. Aren't you afraid I'll stab you to death?"

Huai En listened blankly to Xiaobao's relentless tirade, trembling uncontrollably. His face twisted into a hideous expression, and finally, he raised his hand. Just as Xiaobao instinctively tried to close his eyes, Huai En slapped himself hard. Half of his face immediately swelled up, his eyes turning red.

In a voice that sounded like he was breaking down, he hoarsely shouted, "What do you want from me? Just tell me if it's okay or not! I don't know what to do! What can I do to make you happy? What can I do to keep you from getting angry? I'm sincere, why don't you believe me? Why don't you believe me? Just tell me what I need to do for you to believe me! I want to do this with you! Didn't you like it before? I think about you, why can't I think about this? You used to be like this too! Everything I do is wrong, tell me what to do! Whatever you want me to do, I'll do it! I'll do it all! I...I beg you, okay? Xiaobao, I beg you, I can't take it like this, don't treat me like this, don't say these things. I did wrong, you tell me how to change, how to make amends, anything. That needle, I'll poke myself once, okay? You can cut me a thousand times! Let's reconcile! Please!"