It's always been you, April Kepner

aftermath

with you i'm born again
season 7 ep 1

🎵Six Feet Under-Billie Eilish🎵

"Help, I lost myself again"

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A lot has changed since the shooting

Madelyn and Jackson stopped sleeping together

Lexie got checked into psych

Cristina and Owen got engaged

Madelyn hasn't operated since and it doesn't look like she will anytime soon

Everything was different, well almost everything

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"Your brother was shot, your best friend ended up in psych"

"Yeah?" Madelyn says hesitantly

"But what about you?"

"What about me?"

Dr. Perkins closes the files on his desk "Madelyn-"

"Can't you just clear me, please"

"That's not how this works-"

"Okay then we're done here" Madelyn says storming out of the office

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Madelyn stands alone at the nurses station waiting for her brother to make his big first day back speech

"Right. Hey, uh, yes, good morning. Thank you. Thank you very much. Good. Thank you. Thank you very much. It's, uh, it's great to be back. First of all, I'd like to thank Dr. Webber for stepping up in my absence. Thank you.Uh, I'm grateful for all of you, for all of your support during my recovery. Thank you. Uh, it's just, uh, so great to be back as chief. I'm grateful for the, uh... I'm sorry. That's a lie. That's what people say, and, uh, the truth is... I hate being chief. I hate it.Chief Webber... Chief Webber is our chief. Um... And I'm sorry, but this giant... Sorry, I gotta go look at this chordoma. I, um, I'm sorry, but... I quit. Let's go, Kepner. Come on"

"Oh, sorry. Okay" April says pushing through the crowd of people

what the hell just happened

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(Flashback)

Some of the residents are sat in a group therapy session with Dr. Perkins

"Does, uh, anyone have anything to say? I know that, uh, a lot of you are only here because this has been mandated. So let's talk. Anything at all?"

"I ate a really good taco from one of those trucks by the side of the road" Cristina says

"When?" Meredith asks

"Last night. You were asleep" Cristina replies

"Which truck?" Jackson asks

"The one on 7th?" Madelyn asks

"I want to I like tacos" Alex says

"Me, too" April adds

Lexie interrupts everyone "I read a book... About the history of mass murders in the US. That's... that's the actual name of what happened to us. It was a mass murder. You can't call it a terrorist attack, because the murders weren't political in nature. And we weren't the victims of a serial killer, because Mr. Clark would've had to murder several people over a period longer than 30 days in order to qualify him as a serial killer. We could call it a spree killing... which is defined as killings at two or more locations with no break or pause in between, because Mr. Clark shot that guy in his car before he got here. But I'm not sure that... that counts as a true second location since it was so close to the hospital, which means that we were a mass murder, because it happened at one place, by one person, and more than four people were killed"