Contemplation

Loves trap

After him

After what he did to me

I find trying to move on with someone else seem like another trap

I try not to feel bile raise within me

I try not to tremble in fear

Here is someone so perfect and right

So good and light

And here I am shaking and broken

I try to grasp his hand but a man from the past grips mine and rips it away

I fight but not as much as I can

I'm scared

I can't understand my feelings

I feel so exposed and I can't explain to you with words the things I feel inside

I don't understand why I can't simply love without worrying I might fall to deep into it