I could sink into this
Simmer in it
Suffocate in it
Let it overtake my lungs,
My heart
My mind
"Fight."
A small part of me whispers but I can't acknowledge it
I want too but I feel so drained
I lay for hours thinking of what else I could be doing besides this
I'm not tried but I sleep until darkness meets a different kind of blackness
I feel a pounding heaviness
I don't care about anything
Not really
I think maybe one day I will but not today
My lips won't pull up into a smile even with duck tape stuck too the edges
I so desperately want to be better
But I just can't bring myself up off of this bed
The blankets
They weigh me down
They keep me safely tucked away from the miserable world
And under their softness I don't realize that another grey world hides away
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