I wish it was easy to understand why
I've tried distracting myself from what has happened.
The last time I saw you
I remember it like a wicked fever dream
I tried to open my heart
My mouth was barely open before you tried to shush me with your hands
I wanted to cry
I said I didn't think I really wanted it
But you went on and I looked off and tried to hide the tears in my eyes as I laid there
Helpless
Hopeless
So full of self loathing
But I was scared what would happen if I made you stop
So yes
I haven't called or texted
I haven't even sent a wave
Because I'm so exhausted
I'm beat
In too many ways to describe
And I never want to feel like that again
So taken advantage of and making excuses for men who don't know the word no
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