Contemplation

Heavy eyes

I'm so tired

My eyes can barely stay open

Is it because I'm tired or because I've cried to much recently?

Probably both

I don't know how life seemed so carefree a month ago and now I've lost everything

I feel like I've lost so much and I have

It's things that I will never regain although I'm not sure I should anyways but I hope god has a good reason

If so he should share because it hurts tremendously

And how many times do I have to fake a smile to actually feel happy?

I miss so many things but for some reason, especially right now

My dad