My eyes burn with the want to crymy stomach twists and my chest tightens
I know the second I let them out, the tears won't stop
I feel so exposed and vulnerable
I want to cry and cry and die
I want it all to end
the pain
it consumes every fiber of my being from the cells in my body to the muscles in my throat constricting
My lips are chapped
dried shut from not speaking or drinking
I don't understand why this all haunts me
why am I always the villain
why is it that the the ones who tell the truth are criminalized
while the liars are coddled and fretted over
they say "the truth sets you free." I don't know if it does
what do i have to do in order for them to believe me
my own blood tells me to get over it
family is blood
well you must bleed black then
I won't accept that
I can't
it hurts beyond hurt
so much so that I don't think I will ever be able to describe it
betrayal
heartache
agony
disappointment...
none of them seem good enough of a word
All I know is that I have never not even in my father's death felt this utterly alone
can you heal this pain
please
it hurts
so much
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