Contemplation

Friends Who Hurt

Seeing someone you consider family

break down and beg for their father to come back...

it sticks with you

at times his father's face haunts my dreams

I never saw my own father's body, but I saw his

There was guilt after

I realized that I was more involved in trying to be there for my friend than I was at my own father's funeral

I didn't see his body

I have yet to see his grave and he sees his daily

its been five years for me

three weeks for him and he has the ability to do that

It gives me strength

a want to visit and see him

a gentle reminder that if he can do it so can I

that its time

It was hard seeing how I was when my dad passed from an outside perspective

it reminded me of myself...