Contemplation

Lighter fluid

Choking on smoke
I'm the woods
The air is cold but I have sweat dripping from my brow
Hair in the face, falling down, life flashing by the endd
I'll be black and yellow on the ground
I'm running from the demons following me through the dark. It's cold outside. My mind is fuzzy and I'm a little crazy. I can't remember my name. Teardrops, cigar tea and tequila dripping from my lips I'm a little lost just a little bit crazy and lost, lost.

There's blood on the floor when I get home, there's a hole in the wall, my knuckles are red. My eyes are blurry and I taste salt on my tounge. Ooooh
Cigarettes, teardrops and tequila I can't Remeber my name. Who am I. Just cigarettes and tequila and tears on my lips.
Run , broken sidewalk, asplhalt, dirt road, my legs are burning my breath is shallow.

I'm falling again it may just be too late
I can't hear their voices anymore
I don't know any other way but the drink on my nightstand and the pills in my hands
I'm struggling with it all. I lost myself a long time ago. I was just a child when life began to fall apart. I can't remember who I am. Just the smell of cigarettes on my clothes. Whiskey soaking up my shirt as I come home on a Sunday night. The sadness and empty still there that I tried to wash away. So I take the pills on my nightstand. I don't count but I swallow. My chest is heavy, I pushed everyone away. I'm all alone and no one knows. I'm full of hate and bitter to the core is what they say
I've tried to speak words and say I need something but I can't all that leaves my mouth is poison
So I take the pills
I chug the drink
I fill the room in smoke
I can't remember yesterday or today
I can't remember my own name. All I know is that I have cigarettes and tequila and pills on my nightstand.
I'm a little lost and I can't even remember yesterday