Contemplation

Level Ten Anxiety

My hands shake

They are moving as fast as the thoughts flipping through my mind

I look at all of the things I have done wrong

Its like a movie

replaying

I try to press pause

the remote is jammed

I close my eyes to try to make it go away

I can still see it

flashing beneath my eyelids

my heart pounds

I yank on my hair

My chest thrums rapidly against my ribcage

My breathing increases

deep breaths

calm down

It gets worse

my stomach growls

feed me

Instead I want to vomit

I can't

I'm sorry

I'm too anxious

I cry until I fall asleep

I wake up after ten hours and In thirty minutes my body begs for rest

I lay there again

tired

beat

exhausted

done

overexerted

weak

breaking

falling apart

endlessly

miserable

I fall asleep within minutes