Contemplation

This Feeling

I can not comprehend what I feel.

It is like butterflies inside or maybe lightning bugs but they are trying to catch me on fire.

It's warm and it's not a bad heat but I'm scared.

If I get too close I may harm myself but if I don't I might freeze and never get to feel what is developing inside my chest.

Where there once was a gaping black hole is filled with stars, the night sky and fireflies.

I feel their wings flutter when I see you and they whisper words of encouragement most nights but sometimes they are anxious and I wonder if I should try to chase this feeling but I will.

I want to feel it even if I get burnt in the process.

I know that it was worth it to feel something like this for someone.