ROGUE

48 : The Final Decision

Your POV

I watched as a young woman pushed a stroller through the park whilst Jason and I sat on an old, oak bench in a comfortable silence.
My head was resting on his shoulder, and his left arm was snaked around my waist.
He was looking at the same thing, and he tensed. Undeniable thoughts of children running through his head.

The woman was without a partner, and she looked only a little older than me.
Her jeans were a peachy pink, and her top was white and floaty.
Even from a distance, I could hear the baby's cries, and the woman stared down at it, probably talking or singing to try and calm it down.
Being a mother looked hard work, and I held my breath.

"Our problem is only going to get bigger the longer we wait." I mumbled, and Jason knew exactly what I was talking about.

"I told Alara about it last night, she wasn't much help to be honest." He leant his head against mine and he sighed. "I'm completely torn both ways, Y/n. I don't know what to do."
He admitted, his vulnerability shining through the cracks of his strong image.

"How hard was the slap?" I asked, already picturing Alara whacking Jason across the face for getting me pregnant.

Jason let out a throaty chuckle, yet I could tell that he was troubled. "She didn't slap me at all, believe it or not." His arm tightened around me. "Listen Y/n, I'm supporting you in whatever you do. But... I don't know. I've been thinking and -" he trailed off, lost for words.

A silence lingered in the air for a moment, and my heart pounded.
"You want to keep it, don't you?"
It was obvious.
If Jason didn't want the baby, he would've told me straight.
Instead, he's been throwing his mixed thoughts all over the place.

He inhaled a shaky breath.
"I can't lie to you, Y/n. I know that we're not mature enough for that kind of responsibility, but... I feel like a baby will bring us closer together."

"I've been thinking as well." My voice was barely above a whisper. "I don't know how long I've been carrying this child for, but... I don't know if I can bring myself to get rid of it. But then again, I really don't want to be a parent. Not yet, anyway. I'm scared." I told him, and he nodded understandingly.

"It will be a big step, baby." He kissed the top of my head lovingly. "But we can make it work."

"Do you really think so?" I looked up at him desperately, searching for the reassurance that I knew I would find in his eyes.

"Definitely."

And from that moment on, the tiny being in my stomach became family.
My family.

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Three days passed and Jason made an appointment with a doctor.
Turns out that I had been pregnant for fourteen weeks, and after an awkward ultrasound test, our baby was confirmed as healthy.

The doctors only concern was the fact that I hadn't put on any weight what so ever, but she quickly identified the condition as 'nothing to worry about'.

"Would you like to know the sex of your baby?"
The doctor smiled warmly as she examined the x-ray pictures of the tiny being that was growing inside me.

"Is it possible to know yet?" I asked, clutching Jason's hand as he stood beside me.
He looked down at me as if I was some sort of goddess, his eyes shining and his smile widening by the minute.

"Yes," the doctor nodded. "The earliest we can tell is thirteen weeks."

I looked up at Jason, biting my lip and feeling overly nervous. "Do you want to know?"
We had only just found out about this baby a few days ago, and now the gender was being confirmed. What the hell?

"Yeah." He nodded timidly, and then drew his eyes to the doctor, expecting an answer.

A huge smile widened on the doctors wrinkled face, and she paused, only making the moment longer.
"Congratulations, you're having a daughter."

Only then was the moment when I felt physically ill.
This was real.
I was having a baby daughter with Jason McCann.
And I wasn't sure if I really wanted this.
I heard his muffled voice beside me, and the excitement was unmistakable, however, I couldn't make out his words.
Eventually, the room spun and I blacked out.

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Thanks for reading

SO

THERES A FEW THINGS THAT I NEED TO SAY

FIRST OF ALL IM SORRY THIS WAS SO SHORT IM JUST LOST FOR IDEAS RIGHT NOW (EVEN THO I HAVE A STORYLINE PLANNED OUT I JUST DONT WANT TO RUSH INTO IT)

SECONDLY I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT PREGNANCY CUZ IM PRACTICALLY A BABY MYSELF LIKE NO JOKE IVE SLEPT WITH THE LIGHTS ON FOR THE PAST MONTH BECAUSE I WATCHED A HORROR FILM AND NOW IM PETRIFIED THAT GHOSTS ARE WATCHING ME WHILST I SLEEP ANYWAYYY

SCHOOL STARTS ON MONDAY SO I DONT KNOW IF I WILL BE ABLE TO POST EVERYDAY BUT I WILL TRY MY BEST

LET ME JUST REPEAT. NO ONE PANIC. I AM DEFINITELY NOT LOST FOR IDEAS CAUSE THE STORY LINE IS PLANNED. JUST THESE CHAPTERS ARE BORING CUZ IDEK IM NOT THE BEST WRITER OH WELL

IS THIS STORY EVEN GOOD LIKE WTF I READ BACK MY FIRST FEW CHAPTERS AND I CRINGED SO HARD THAT I AM NOW DECEASED

WHICH IS WHY...

ONCE THIS BOOK IS FINISHED, I WILL EDIT EVERY CHAPTER TO MAKE IT LESS CRINGE AND MAKE JASON LESS OF A CRY BABY LMAOOOOOO

SO AFTER THIS BOOK IS COMPLETED PLZ DONT GET MAD AT ALL THE NOTIFICATIONS SAYING THAT I UPDATED CUZ ITS JUST GONNA BE AN EDIT AND IDEK WHY IM TELLING U THIS NOW BECAUSE THIS STORY IS NO WHERE NEAR FINISHED

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