Love Again

153. Tough Choices

"I didn't think you'd agree to meet me."

"You should have called mom and dad to come instead, or Elric's mother." 'Do you have any idea how many lies I had to tell Stan and his parents just to get to see you?'

"How are Stan's parents?"

"They're okay."

"Figures. They get to keep you for the rest of their lives. Of everyone, I felt like they understood me the most from the beginning."

"Everyone empathizes with your situation. You've just refused to allow your own family to care for you and keep acting on your own."

"You'll never get it Yeon. I'm not like you to go about galavanting to the world my vulnerabilities." 'Accepting to be defeated in the presence of those that were used to seeing me excel makes me feel ashamed. I've never been this broken in my life and I don't know how to deal with this situation and I can't stand being pitied.

"My life was shattered don't you get it? My dreams, career, self-esteem, my dignity, reputation..!" 'You think I don't know how chaotic I am? That's why I worked hard in my career to make something of me and just like that, all my efforts amounted to nothing. Absolutely nothing!

"She made me beg, making me look so predictable, stupid and simple. She hurt my pride."'There is no light at the end of the tunnel in my life... Just the opposite. A tunnel leading me into utter darkness.'

"I don't belong here anymore little brother. I've outgrown my stay. Everything and everyone knows me and I hate it. I can't even walk the streets without nosy neighbors asking me of my marker let alone my past flings."

"What about Princess? Are you ever going to ask for her back?"

Mijin smirked. "Never. She has nothing to do with me and neither do I. Moreover, I'm afraid if I hear one more cry from her, I'll kill her then kill myself. That thing reminds me of so many things that haunt me."

'Fuck! I need so sticky. I need a cold shower to cool off my anger, a warm bed to sleep... I need to get my life together, leaf through job offers or a new employer in a  place no one knows me.' 

"How is Niel doing?"

"He and Elric are alright."

"I never asked you about that ugly mut. He took Niel from me right in front of my eyes."

"Mijin, just let them be. Do not interfere..."

"He looked so handsome the last time I saw him. He was a good shoulder to cry on Yeon and someone I relied on whenever I felt down yet right now, he is probably in someone else's arms... That fucking ugly Elric stole my man from me!" 

'Why I'm I so unlucky?' "Wasn't Elric just fooling around like I was yet look at him now, married to the person I can't let go of and has stupid weaklings for children! They are probably as fucked up as Elric is. I hope they die."

"That is a very bad thing to say Mijin."

"You sound like mom Yeon. All of you have no idea what I went though. Mora watched as his brother took advantage of me..." Mijin hesitated. "I was so terrified. I tried pushing him away but he marked me and my heat took over me then I began to want him so bad I could die. 

I despise that memory the most, calling out to him yet at the same time, detesting him touching me but eventually, I gave into a lust I've never experienced before. 

When I woke up later, Mora said we'd gone on and on for more than a day. She intentionally kept us together. I didn't know why she'd done that until weeks later when I was told I was pregnant with that thing that I feel no attachment to, planted in me so I would grow it out of me."