I didn't even know what I was doing. I was just there, wide awake at two am in a hotel bathroom. I was trying to get my idea straight but I couldn't quite figure it out. I know it's probably a really easy thing to know for most girls, but I don't know why, I kept changing my mind. Yes, I trust Shawn and the only person with who I would want to do it is with him. But no, because I'm still a little bit scared of what will happen. But, I mean, isn't everyone scared the first time?
I was still in my mind when I heard little knocks on the door.
Shawn: "Claire? Are you okay?"
I turned around, confused. I didn't know Shawn was awake. But I could tell in his voice that he just woke up. I walked to the door and opened it, revealing a very sleepy but cute Shawn. His hair was very messy and his eyes were still half-closed.
Me: "Yeah"
Shawn: "What are you doing?" He asked, confused.
Me: "Nothing. I just- I couldn't sleep"
Shawn: "Why?"
Me: "I don't know"
Shawn: "Babe, if you can't sleep, there's been stuff going around your mind. Are you homesick? It's totally normal if-"
Me: "No, no. It's not that"
Shawn: "What is it, then?"
I looked down at my fingers, embarrassed. Shawn walked closer to me, taking my hands in his.
Me: "You know, what happened earlier, I don't-"
Shawn: "Did I do something wrong?" He asked, looking very worried, cutting me off.
Me: "No, no. It's not you"
Shawn: "Oh, okay"
Me: "It's just- I don't know if I'm ready"
Shawn: "Babe, I already told you this. It's totally fine if you're not. We don't have to rush anything. I can wait, don't worry"
Me: "No, that's not what I meant"
Shawn looked at me, very confused.
Me: "I think I am. I just don't know why I've been waiting this long. I'm just so confused and I don't even know why"
Shawn: "Claire, if you're still not sure about it, we can just wait. Just take your time to think. There's not reason to rush this"
Me: "No, Shawn. You don't get it. I'm ready. I'm just-" I looked down at my fingers "scared."
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Kid In Love - Shawn Mendes Fan Fiction
FanfikceClaire is a normal 15 years old girl. She's Aaliyah Mendes' bestie. They always hang out together and they love each other. Her whole life changes when she goes to Aaliyah's house, where she meets Shawn. She gets feelings for him but everything is g...